Book 4
1st Year at Oxford

Chapter 1: Michaelmas term and Christmas vacation 1953
1.1: Career: the Oxford experience
1.2: Sex: wobbling on the brink of betrothal
1.3: Parents & siblings: exploring the new order
1.4: Identity & worship: a beginning to self-analysis
1.5: Authority: a staff with uncertain loyalty
Chapter 2: Hilary term, Easter vacation and Trinity term 1954
2.1: Career & activities: settling into my undergraduate identity
2.2: Parents: my need for independence
2.3: Siblings: new forms for old relationships
2.4: Sex: to the peak, and past it
2.5: Identity & worship: seeking relationship with God
Chapter 3: Long vacation 1954
3.1: Activities: travels in Spain
3.2: Sex: absence makes the heart grow fonder
3.3: Parents: taking a stand on my future
3.4: Identity: firming up